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Weird, life got in the way of me being on the computer.  Had surgery on my hand and will be off work till next year.  I cannot use my left hand for much…typing is killing me right now.  I can do buttons and things but no weight or much motion it hurts….

Anyway, I just realized I belong to this site as I was watching the instructional dvd’s that came with my Zumba Fitness dvd’s and weights that I ordered….lol, too much do nothing time on my hands and too much infomercial time.  I think I may like this if I am coordinated enough to not kill myself.

 Truly I wish I could say that I managed to do what I wanted and lose 10 pounds a month…..did not happen.  I didn’t even try.  With the stress of having to make some big decisions with my moms care, bf quitting his job, me being laid up with the hand….well, I just have not really given me any thought……but I got the dvd’s and I went shopping for good food and am back on track.  I guess 20 lbs will have to be my goal for January but that is ok.  I admit sometimes I overestimate my ability to do what I need.  I am an overacheiver from way way back…bear with me please!

 So…..I am back and I intend to be here daily and blog about my life, my trials, you know….just be here to make me keep on track.

 Talk to me people!!!

Had a doctor’s visit today for a checkup for my fibromyalgia. New medicine dosage seems to be helping along with limiting my work to 8 hours a day. So I don’t see him for four months and when I do I plan on there being alot less of me…LOL.

Four months, figuring about 10 pounds a month with any luck and hard work I will be 40 pounds lighter and very close to my goal.  Keep your fingers crossed and yell at me when I fall off the wagon please!!!

 Today I actually don’t hurt very much which is a totally different feeling for me.  It always shocks me when I don’t hurt alot and not really alot of fatigue today either.  So all in all, a pretty good day. Did good on the eating but still haven’t managed to get the exercise routine down….I don’t work tomorrow night so I am going to sit down and work out a time plan for my exercise to make it work out for my life schedule. Hopefully, it all comes together over the next 3 days and I jumpstart my path to a new me!

Today is going ok although I am not able to do much in the exercise mode, I managed to do that last night at work. At least I move alot there otherwise I may not get any exercise when I am having a very painful day.  Today is very painful and I feel so extremely exhausted.  It is a beautiful day and I should get myself outside to enjoy it a little yet here I sit on the couch wishing I could manage to move and thinking I have to make Bret dinner and get ready for work again.  Two more nights and then I can say the week is over and done with and hope to enjoy the weekend and perhaps get some exercise worked into my life.

I know I have to do something for about 30 days for it to become a habit and not have to think about it to do it.  So that is my goal here…once I can actually move I am going to make sure I do something everyday for 30 days and make exercise a habit in my life. 

So right now I am feeling sorry for myself that I feel so incredibly awful from the fibromyalgia and that I have to go to work in just a few hours.  I was just on vacation so it makes getting back into the work mode so hard.

 Ok fellow bloggers, off to manage making dinner and get myself ready for work.

You know before I could do so much with little sleep now that fibromyalgia has decided to be in my life it is just not that easy.  I need so much more rest and even that doesn’t help alot, it doesn’t give me restorative sleep.  That just makes working a physical job all night and trying to maintain a household, keep a relationship going and tend to a mother that has alzheimers all a little bit overwhelming.

Try adding in trying to buy the right things to eat and do some type of exercise each day and I feel lost and defeated before I ever start. 

 Thursday I have a doctor’s appointment to see how my medications are doing.  They help but of course do not make things perfect and I have to deal with the pain and tiredness.  BUT I am choosing not to deal with being overweight any longer…nope, I vow that tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life…..the life I need to have.

I am so aware that exercise is extremely good for my fibromyalgia and of course the weight loss.  I stand all night and I throw small parcels and magazines into containers…..exercise but excercise I have been doing for so long it doesn’t count. I tend to buy things out of the snack machine at work and I know how bad that is…must break that habit and the biggest thing is my relying on diet pepsi to get me through anything.  Yesterday we ran out, I didn’t buy any more.  I am drinking crystal light and water.  I will indulge on occasion but going to break that addiction…..so this is it.  I have a little less than 9 months till I turn 50 and I am going to enter my 50’s with the best ME that I can be…..

I am going to visit the site daily or twice a day for motivation and I am going to write in my blog all my thoughts…..hope that it helps me and perhaps others.

Ok, so I start out with a passion that cannot be matched only to have it fizzle on me oh so quickly.

I have been off work and on “vacation”, albeit a stay at home, do nothing vacation and I have managed to avoid this site and the scale and good food.  I vow to be back and working at this only to put it off a little longer. 

 I so need help to make myself accountable here so that I don’t cheat myself out of the life I want and need.  If there is anyone out there willing to help keep me on the straight and narrow please messge me.  I cannot manage this without the support and the having to answer to someone what it is that I think I am doing slacking off.

 Today is a new day so today I begin again my journey into a healthy eating and exercise way of life, but only if someone helps!!

I have been missing from here but not because I fell off the wagon so to speak…because the lady that takes care of my mom (mom has alzheimers) was hospitalized for 5 days leaving alot of gaps in the day for caregiving to my mom.  That fell to me along with working so I was not on the computer at all….

I had a major Fibro flare and went to the doctors, he upped a medicine to 3 times a day instead of 2, we shall see how that works out.  I had good news though I lost 6 pounds!!! Yay!!

Well, almost a week in and I am doing well with the “diet” part of my plan.  Work and my fibro has kicked my exercise plan thow.  I did well on Monday and the rest of the week I have been so exhausted and have too much pain to manage to do the exercise thing.

 I am proud of me though that even though one phase isnt going as well as I anticipated and wanted I am still going strong on the eating habits.  All good food and not an overabundance of it at all.  I am a weigh once a week kind of woman so on Sunday we shall see how that has gone.

 I am stressed at work to the complete max and am trying to get a week off to chill and get feeling better.  Guess now it is a wait and see game if I get it or not.

Hope that I can manage to turn around my exercise habits…got to make it !!!!

Had a very busy and active night at work.  I had a salad, sugar free jello and sugar free pudding during the night with 3 bottles of water….good night.

Came home and making chilli for the bf for dinner, I will have a baked chicken breast and salad.  Had a hard boiled egg, no yolk…hard to do cause that is the good part to me.  But losing weight will be the best part.  I am off to exercise before laying down for my sleep and I will be exercising again when I get up. Going to ride the elyptical rider for 20 minutes when I get up and doing crunches, leg lifts, pelvic tucks and the such before I lay down. 

 It feels good…doesn’t it?  To make the decision to change your body and lifestyle and feel like you have a real chance at doing it.  I am happy to have found this site and am looking forward to losing those pounds.  I have a doctor’s appointment for fibromyalgia check Sept. 3 and cannot wait to see that scale then…hoping for a 10-15 pound loss….keep your fingers crossed for me.

 Ok, off to exercise and sleep.  Have a great day all.

Today is the day I want to start moving to make myself get into shape and lose weight….my fibromyalgia is making that hard to do.  I hurt alot today and am extremely tired…..BUT I intend to do this.

I am going to the grocery store to stock up on good food and food I can make “the boy” that works with what I am eating. )The boy is my boyfriend of a little over 2 years….a friend of mine always refers to him as that and it has caught on.

So…..after my return from the store I will work on some food stuff and plan some menus then I am going to start this work out thing in earnest and then I will go to work.  Working at night at a pretty physical job makes this even more of a challenge but I know I can do it.

Today I start the rest of my life.  I have seemed to always focus on my body and weight when I am the least happy with it and that seems to follow through to I weigh more when I am the happiest…..go figure.  So when my life is going the best I feel the worst. So Today…August 8th, 2010 begins the start of my life being happy and me getting to where I am happy with my weight and look.

I have adhered to the “Atkins” type of diet several times before and I have had great success when eliminating carbs….so I will go this way for now to see how it goes again.  I am going to move again…move my body and keep moving.  With the fibromyalgia I have alot of difficulty “moving” extra than daily routine and work….but….I am determined to enter my “50’s” thin and fit….that’s why I am here.

This is the last lifestyle change I am going to make…no more diets….just a change to keep me happy with me when I get there…..it is almost 1am….going to bed and going to start my new life in the morning!!!!

Wish me luck.